promise

I wish I can tell you something
something that me hurts
but I can't
I give you a promise
a promise which is important for me

I take my showers alone
I go alone sleep
I make my bed alone
I go sleep without the lights
I will be strong

but....

I can't think about it
I can't talk about me
I can't show into the mirror
I can't trust

I'm a prisoner of my soul and my soul is bleeding