klein...

momentan läuft alles supi!
habe nun eventuell einen neuen betrieb der mich übernimmt...
und somit ist der neustart in düsseldorf rund um gut!
der stress legt sich so langsam und ich hoffe einfach das beste~
und da ich eigentlich nichts großes schreiben wollte...
nur einen kleinen bericht für meine liebsten...
hiermit ein kleiner abschluss :P


klarkommen ist Luxus und so ein Luxus können wir uns nicht leisten



̿̿̿̿̿̿̿ ̿̿̿̿̿ ̿̿̿̿̿̿’̿\̵͇̿̿\=((•̪●))=/̵͇̿̿/’̿̿ ̿ ̿ ̿

♪~♫-♥|̲̅̅●̲̅̅|̲̅̅=̲̅̅|̲̅̅●̲̅̅|.ιllı.ιllıl


btw....
nichts geht über despa...
ich hör sie schon wieder rauf und runter.. ♥
der ersatz von lynch ist allerdings auch klasse :P

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

dear

Dear you,

I miss you. I miss how you cared for me, how you always make my day, how you used to cheer me up, and how you make me feel that you love me. I miss everything that used to be.
WHAT HAPPENED?!

Love
Me


...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

nothing special

it'a a long time ago that I send you some lifestorys of my...fuckin' life huh?
I know I haven't something to say to this...
but okay I love you all guys...~!
that's a reason to talk to you ♥

some times in my life I really miss the old times...
the times where some guys bring me to smile...
when we only talk about some shit...
sitting on the wather...
nothing to talk...
but only the feeling... they are there...
there for me and for nothing else....
it was a great feeling....

I know I wasn't fair at all the times...
and I know... I will make so much more mistakes....
and I hope... I will never lose this guys...
surely... I don't say names...
I'm sure that the guys know it....!

some other news...
uhm...
nothing special..
but I wrote now more for you..!
I will give you more news... !!!
I miss the feedbacks...
the positiv times....~

let's smile together!

by the way...
happy easter my beloved bunnys :P



...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

news?

ARGH!!!

What the fuck...

I would give you more to read...and what do I do?

wrote nothing... (｡-_-｡)

this month I hope I can tell you more!

hm.... this week was great, really great!

I become a new friend, I love this girl really...

we make so much things... and we going into the same school...;'D

okay...

ahm....today: love the sun! goin' to work...and then: ROCKRIVAL - it is a Party!

some other news?

not really....

enjoy your day guys!

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

world in grey....

Why is my heart hurting? Am I just wishing for something that I've lost?

The spring days that you had brought to me

Their scent still lingers in that same way

Leaving behind the words that couldn't be said....

Now... its autumn ~

The words that couldn't be said at that time, I guess they go somewhere, and return

Somewhere, if you're smiling for me - now, I'm able to think that it's good enough

It's painful: when you're not here
It's painful: when I cannot meet you as usual

Without knowing how to love, I only hurt you
How much meaning have I been able to build up?

Take me by the hand and lead me, breathless, to tomorrow - a wish...

Like this, I fall into darkness

Even the light, even with these notes, I think they'll reach you

The memories are played, forever

I・LO・VE・YO・U...
If I would say it would you hold me close ?

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

weekend

awake...

this wasn't a great weekend...

why can't I see ya...?!

why I'm so stupid?

I hope we can see us soon....~

but... it was nice to talk with jin....~

what a price....

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

life

the moment when....

you recognize the woman of your life by the fact that she comes back to you again and again, although she knows you're an asshole

yeah I really miss her and... I think she never know this.. but this is okay!

so.. and this is for U....~:

k...

what should I say..?

nothing....? I think so.... wish ya all a nice weekend..!!!

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

dangerous

haha it means so much ....

I think it describes my life~

I saw the picture of the toilet and I though... yeah let's take a photo ....

here it is:

so...

what should I say?

I'll make a new blog later...

maybe... it's interesting for a special person.. who is not longer a part of my life but will always be in my heart....

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

one week

ONLY ONE WEEK!!!

I can't wait any longer, I'm so happy about it.

On friday I meet Tine and we get our new tattoo ヾ(｀⌒´メ)ノ″

After this we go to the cinema ♥

and.... and.... and..... on Saturday:

I will see NEGA!
I really love their songs.

Their songs are so great!

And.. maybe I will see friends =]

It will be a great weekend!!

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

hole

I think every time: yeah all is good, I have a fuckin good time...

and now I realized:

I'm in a deep hole... I never was outside of the hole and that will not change in the next time...

so what.? welcome deep hole

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

moment

what I need at the moment: A FUCKIN HOT PARTY!!!!

I love Partys and ... I need some good Party-Guys...Q_Q

every time it's the same story: I go alone .... but how ever... I have fun :P but it's not the same with friends... ~

okay... enough....

some other news? .... ..... ..... NO =3 I'm to lazy *laugh* wish ya all a great day!

my love goes to the music of the world... my first love:

music.. and my love for the future is music

♪♪♫♪♫ (*｀へ´*)

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

☆☆☆ GB ☆☆☆

IT UPSETS ME WHEN PEOPLE SAY THAT GOLDEN BOMBER HAS NO TALENT BECAUSE THEY ARE AN ‘AIR BAND’ - THEY NEVER HEARD THESE BOYS PLAYING THEN.

PLUS, WHO SAYS MAKING PEOPLE LAUGH IS NO TALENT?

so true.... nobody in my concern can tell me: I make you smile every time... - but this guys make it!

and by the way... I love our music ♡

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

trust...?!

Have I ever told you, that I hate it when someone says: Hey... trust me... it is true... I swear! Yeah... every time the same story, you trust the person and then? You'll be deeply disappointed! Of course, nobody can hold his promises, hey I'm not better but I don't promise things, that I can't hold, everyday...

okay I think it's enough for today... I should not trouble about this shit?!

wish ya all a nice time, and.... see ya ー( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

♔

what I expect at the moment? nothing...
here a song from kyo of dir en grey
it describe my feelings

眼を閉じる

此処は蒼い　朱鷺が鳴く　心の底

嵐が連れ去った　明日を感じたいから

剥がれ朽ちる絵と

記憶からまだ涙を消せない

きっとそれはもう癒えない

何処かで知りながら

記憶からまた涙を落とし

周りを見渡す

きっとそこにはもう誰の

為でもない今が…独り

消えない傷でも綺麗でしょ？

夢が枯れてもまだ愛せるの？

確かに煌く明日じゃない

壊れそうなその意思は

振る返る為の傷じゃない

記憶からまだ涙を消せない

この闇の音も

きっとそれはもう癒えない

何処かで知りながら

壊れ行く　夜が　目の前で

何もかも捨てた　お前は月

泣いて眠ればいい

過ちが生き方を変えはしない

気高く真っ白な　蓮を咲かせ

背に描いた　意思はもう揺るがない

自由な空　眼を閉じよう

What is believing？

京 ~ LOTUS

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

love?!

love what is that?

I don't know what you think about "love" but I think they isn't true... love isn't something what I like, it isn't real. It is a dream a dream about two persons, they maybe have the same interests But how long? How long will they have the same interests? Only few months? Or a year... two years? What is then?

Now you can think about it, what is your opinion? Make a comment and tell it to me... =3

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

big thanks ;'D

thanks to chris!

he make my day!!!

he wrote:

Viagra is like a Disney land ride.

One hour wait for a 2 minute ride.

so...

and now something for u guys:

a new picture? Yeah... I know U want it ;'D

some other news?

uhm today I make a bicycle tour.. but only two hours... I would make it longer but I cant... it was to hot and I forgot the sun protection! Sometimes I'm to crazy! Really... I forget so many things... but however...

wish ya a nice time guys =3

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

moments of life

so....

I think it's time for a new post! I change my layout today and I hope you like it? Whatever...

So about Paris: The Golden Bomber concert was so great, I love the guys really, so sweet and woah, I don't know what I should say.... yeah... I'm glad to meet some nice people! But enough....

Dir en grey was so much better! I have so much fun with Yomi in the Netherlands ... ! I would say so much to you, I would inform you about the concerts... but I can't... I don't know why...

In the next time I will catch up on everything! :3

During the past time I realize some things and now I know it is okay that I will have my own life, my own way is the right way! sorry but I had to say it ...

here one picture with me and ruki (a very good friend ♥):

...
leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

atm

yeah...
at the moment: JAPAN EXPO!
*grin*

next weekend paris again...♥
muchus love !!!!
btw....i will see GOLDEN BOMBER with Yutaka i love this boy..
he is so cute and his sexyness...
*smirk*

and...this weekend...
back to stralsund...~
what ever....

PAAAAAAAARIS !!!!
*party time*

*･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･'(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)'･*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･*

<---- so silly *laugh*

...

leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

...

kann man mich nicht einfach mal meinen scheiss machen lassen
ansonsten ist es doch auch egal was ich mache und was nicht...

ich versteh auch nicht warum sich gewisse personen nur melden wenn sie was wollen
oder wenn gerade sonst keiner zeit hat

um ehrlich zu sein habe ich momentan immer mehr lust fast alle kontakte abzubrechen
in den laufenden tagen werde ich einmal mehr darüber nachdenken....

ansonsten...?
ahm...eigentlich nix neues, gibt momentan genug sachen die ich erzählen könnte aber ich denk ich sollte erst einmal selbst mehr darüber nachdenken

wünsche eine angenehme woche!

...

leda Щ(◣д◢)艸

bambus

wissen sie warum der bambus hier steht?
er wartet darauf das der wind ihn streichelt...er ist voller gefühle~

...

leda Щ(◣д◢)艸